The Good Kind of Busy

It’s late at night, and for the first time in 3 years, I am no longer a night owl. The reason being, I am sure you already know if you follow me on IG (and if not what the hell are you waiting for), your girl got a job in a Tech StartUp! It is a weird thing really, how life works. Three years ago, the startup/corporate world was one that I really didn’t want to be part of. It was almost a need to be so different than everybody else that I had it scratched off my list to make a statement. And Yet. And yet this year has told me so much about the person I am and the things I want. Things I didn’t even think I wanted, thoughts I didn’t even realized I had, cravings that I had been silencing for a long time. So let’s have the Juicy talk shall we? Lots of bloggers will tell you: My dream is to blog full time. This is the convo I have been having with twenty somethings, pursuing the sole purpose of surviving out of their own personal brand. And after almost 4 years of blogging, I started being conscious of what had been there for a very long time. Not me. I love blogging. I truly do. But I love it a different way than some of my full-time peers. I don’t love to glam up every single day, I don’t get FOMO if I am not on PR or event lists, it is not a big deal if I don’t get as many opportunities as others. What I love about it, is to be able to tell you all the stories of my life without feeling the pressure of owning up to standards. I love to communicate with each one of you on a daily basis, getting to know you and who you are beyond blogging. Most of all, I love the possibility of being more than one person. A la James Bond if you will. Digital Marketer from 9-5, and influencer content creator at night. The takeaway of this crazy journey being that sometimes you have no fucking clue of what you need. You think you do, put expectations and faces on the feelings you are supposed to feel but sometimes. Sometimes you just land on something that happened to be the last thing you thought to be lacking and it happens to be the last piece that you needed to be the person you were always supposed to be. It took me a while to figure it out and I am not going to lie. I am overwhelmed, exhausted and my brain is more fried than a chicken. It is being hard to keep up, but you all know I love myself a good challenge. I don’t ever want to be the type of person to settle for a single thing. It is probably my one magic power but also one of the things I know is eventually going to be a problem in the future. The inability to just be one thing. The need to constantly pursue a new story. Something motivating, kind of emotional and hopefully inspiring for you to follow. That is who I am. Constantly busy in heart and in mind. Luckily for me, it is the good kind of busy.