After avoiding to face reality for nearly 10 days, I am here again. I thought that after presenting the thesis I would have plenty of time to create a lot of content and tell you many more stories.
But to be honest, this end of the year comes with great news that are kind of perturbing me in every ways. I’m terribly happy because it means a great a change in my life and as the same time I’m so hysterically sad as it means to sacrifice many things in my life. Don’t worry, I won’t keep the suspense any longer: I will tell you all about it in my next posts.
So for the last days, I have been thinking constantly, appreciating every moment with my people, I have even thought a few times about shutting down the blog and my social media. And as for now, I discovered why I have so much trouble in filming vlogs. To me, it feels almost impossible to capture the magic of any moment and make you feel exactly what I have felt while I was living it. And that’s truly what I am trying to do through all my content, through my writing, through my stories. I want to make you laugh, I want to make you feel happy, I want to make you feel embraced, and sometimes well yeah I want to make you sad because this is part of taking you through my journey.
Everytime I would turn the camera on, I would think how ridiculous I sounded but then I would think that all of this would have been impossible 1 year ago. And that is mainly because I have spent the last six month working with a wonderful person that has brighten so many of my days. Even though many vlogs might not have any meaning or emotion to communicate, I figured that one of ours would.
Because to me, the last six months changed me drastically. Audrey and I have grown to have our own codes, our own rituals, our own sarcastic language. Its honestly one of the people I am able to spend 24 hours with, without any damage and trust me: this says a lot. We understand each other without words and the truth is, most of the times we don’t need to speak to create something great. As great as her blog, and even greater as our relationship. So, I hope I was able to capture this in 11 minutes and that you will enjoy it as much as I enjoy everyday I spend with her.
Lots of love always,