Midnight after a few noodles and intense talks about love, he teases like he always has. ” You don’t know shit about fashion” he says eyeing me quickly. Of course, I pretend I’m offended realizing that I am the easiest person to tease, to laugh at, to play with. I remember feeling great in my Zara tweed coat with leather sleeves, booties and leather leggings. I was so in love with fashion back then that I instantly fired back at his preppy grey coat, “Mr Arrogant will just end up with 7 cats and nobody to laugh at”.
But between me and you: I don’t know shit about fashion. It’s more, I’m pissed at fashion. I’m pissed for loving it so much yet not being able to agree to all these standards that make us feel so bad with ourselves. I hate the feeling of never having enough: never be pretty enough, never be slim enough, never be stylish enough. So you put more make-up on with Kardashian contouring included and go to the gym everyday sweating your ass off. When donuts time comes, you say no and take a bite of that delish avocado. Why do you do that? Because basically everybody does it.
I am not sure when I started feeling so disconnected to fashion and everything it represents. Maybe since we have been given the right to be proactively part of it and that we still keep doing what is expected to be better liked, followed and appreciated. And me? You already know I am a disaster. I am trendless, always a season late on my Social media: I wear dresses in Winter and coats in the beginning of summer. If you are one of the people that have the immense pleasure to see me everyday: You know i almost never wear makeup, my hair is a mess and there is high chances I’m wearing leggings to head directly to the gym after class. My outfit salad always has the same ingredients with a different dressing from time to time but my objective has never been to be one of those fashion icons. My objective is to show you that you can achieve so many beautiful things once you step out of your comfort zone and social trends either you are reading me from an office in your suit or from your ultra-fashionable white instagramable desk. It is to create beautiful pictures and marry the words together so you feel empowered to do your own thing, to feel beautiful no matter what everybody else tells you.
I don’t know shit about fashion but who says you need to know shit about anything? Be you, Be fierceless, be so unique you can’t be replaced. You have an infinite sea of choices ahead of you, from being a trend-addict to the insupportable rebel I am as long as it makes you happy. Because the choice of being happy is the true timeless beauty. Not a crop top, Not a Saint Laurent bag.
Cheers to choosing noodles, midnight walks and that person who saw through me like nobody else.
Lots of love always,
WHAT I’M WEARING: ZARA coat // ZARA Jacket // ZARA Tee // ZARA pants // MAJE boots // REBECCA MINKOFF bag
All pictures by Darius Boustantchi