The last summers have knocked at my door bringing the same mood with them, with nostalgic yet somehow excited vibes.
It is always sweet and sour to me, I have been an extremely lucky and blessed kid getting to spend my summers traveling all over the world to beautiful destinations. I only realize with the distance the preciousness of witnessing so many stories, to having strong tan lines wrapping my body and having a constant feeling of easyness. It is something that I often miss, even more when all the motion around me almost gets too overwhelming and running away becomes this tempting option I choose to avoid.
I always wonder how things would be if I did everything differently, if I continued living that way. And the response comes off so easily, I would be so empty. I realize that witnessing doesn’t necessarily mean living and that having all the greatest things in the world doesn’t mean you are able appreciate every single part of them. It doesn’t mean you get to realize how lucky you are and it certainly doesn’t give you the willpower to be grateful. I think about myself back then and realize I had nothing to be proud of, nothing I accomplished by myself as everything was given so easily. I rewind my path and realize that I consider that my life has actually started a few years ago, and yes in summer. That is when I started to be the master of my life, the one that fights for what she wants, no matter what she is being told, no matter what she is being stopped by. And that’s is when I can say I have it all, when I truly know how to embrace it and not only see it happening in front of my eyes.
So today is to gratitude. To new memories that might not be on a Turquoise beach but are worth so much more than that. Because they are embraced by love. While I allow myself to be sunkissed on a Toronto rooftop I realize that all the little things are what make my life so beautiful, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Lots of Love always,
TODAY I’M WEARING: RALPH LAUREN shirt // OYSHO shorts // ADIDAS Stan Smith Sneakers // CHLOÉ bag
All pictures by Darius Boustantchi