To the ones that got away

There are so many things I don’t know:

I don’t know why we are so addicted to the idea of pretending, of hiding, of never speaking about we honestly feel. Fearing so much people to see us for what he truly are that we apply endless filters and facades to who we truly are. I thought I was honest until I realized the countless times I blanked on my writing censoring all the things I would like to say but never ever even dared because of fear. Fear to disappoint, fear to scare people off, fear to lose them.

I don’t know why my heart always wins over my head impregnating every memory into my skin so brightly they are impossible to forget, feeling every possible heartbeat coming across my way, caring so much I often become selfless.

I don’t know why I still seem to be one of those people that no matter the years, no matter the pain, no matter the disappointment holds on so tightly she simply goes out of breath.

I don’t know how people are able to move on like you never meant anything, like you weren’t enough to fight for, like falling ouf of love is as easy as falling in love.

I don’t know how life can give you so much yet sometimes take it away from you once you just had a taste of it. And I hate people stating that it is for the best, that everything happens for a reason even if it is the one truth I live for.

I don’t know how I am still unable to write like a normal fashion blogger. #ootd

But here is something I know and I have learned over the years out of all the things I don’t know.

I am not cheesy, it’s more I despise cheesy but here I am once again, talking about love.

Love fiercely, Don’t be afraid of the power it has on you and never run away from something that can make you better and stronger. Something that suddenly show your true colors to the world but mostly to yourself.

And it will make you feel alive as much as it will kill you as sometimes you will have to understand and accept decisions that might leave you heartbroken.

So don’t chase anything, don’t act out of fear to lose people, don’t pretend to be someone you are not. No matter what you fight, say or do: they will just leave if they have to.

 But if you truly love them, you will let go.

Lots of love always,







WHAT I’M WEARING: ZARA coat // RALPH LAUREN shirt // ZARA pants // MAJE boots // CHANEL bag

All pictures by Darius Boustantchi


  1. Britta
    May 25, 2016 / 10:28 am

    Neg! You are a true artist! Your writing is so good! I love the fact that you dont write like any other fashionblogger. Your words speak to me like no other.
    And then your pics scream fashion! Love this look and you.
    Lots of love

    • neguineb
      May 26, 2016 / 4:14 am

      Thank you so much my Britta. I know I repeat it constantly but I am so grateful for you. Funnily, the words never flow that easily when I read these kind of comments. I’m enjoying the writing so much and I’m writing everyday and plan to be more and more active on here (i’m in transition hehehe). But it warms my heart that you think that I’m an artist, it means everything. Thank you so much sis and Love you so much always always <3

  2. May 26, 2016 / 7:38 am

    Wow wow this is amazing babe! Beautiful words. I know l’ve said this so many times but you are truly amazing , beautiful and inspiring. Love you and your style.
    Kisses, Raysa

    • neguineb
      May 26, 2016 / 6:37 pm

      My Raysaaaa!!! Thank you so much always my babe, No matter how many times you say it I am always so grateful and honored. Love you so much beautiful <3

  3. May 26, 2016 / 10:44 am

    Beautiful post and beautiful you!

    • neguineb
      May 26, 2016 / 6:35 pm

      Thank you so much babe!! Right back at you <3

  4. May 26, 2016 / 7:06 pm

    I think your writing is a lot more open and personal than a lot of other fashion bloggers, myself included :/
    I want to be able to absolutely pour my heart out but I know that people from my personal life read my blog and it stops me because I don’t want them to freak out on me (especially my mom, who overanalyzes and gets way too worried).
    Keep it up girl – you are amazing! I think I tell you that every post though haha
    much love x
    ps. looove that jacket & the shoes!

    • Persian Brunette
      May 26, 2016 / 7:12 pm

      My Maria <3 First thank you so much for always always supporting me and reading me. It means honestly everything (even though I also tell you everytime you comment). I was the exact same way, writing is not an easy mission for me. I keep thinking about all the people who could read and some that actually could recognize themselves in my writing. Then I think what the heck, it's my way to grow. Some will like it, others will think its too much but the important thing is how happy it makes me feel. So if that's what you wanna do and open your heart, do it like no one is reading. Moms are always worried but I can promise you it will make you feel so good. You are amazing as well my beauty and I believe in you <3

      Love you

  5. May 27, 2016 / 6:15 pm

    Everyone loves it when folks get together and share ideas.
    Great blog, stick with it!

  6. May 28, 2016 / 10:46 am

    Beautiful photos <3 Have a wonderful day, cutie!

  7. June 1, 2016 / 8:37 pm

    I feel those words babe. I am so moved!
    Thanks for sharing this with us! You are truly amazing young lady and I admire you for that. love u always.


    • Neguine
      June 4, 2016 / 7:25 pm

      You my beauty is one of the people that helped me the most to open up that much. Just by being here always. Love you always

  8. November 24, 2016 / 10:15 pm

    Lovely photography! I loved the words more, I have read a lot of what fashion bloggers write but this one is obvious it is very from the heart and also poetic which I love!
    I am gad I found about you

    • Neguine
      November 26, 2016 / 12:16 am

      Omg!! Thank you so so so much! Your comment made my day and made me smile like crazy. I think writing differently is kind of a challenge but it is definitely worth it when you read this kind of response! Thank you so much for this comment and lots of love to you babe!

  9. May 22, 2017 / 9:17 am

    Ok girl this is next level deep. You of course look beautiful and your words are even stronger! You live once babe. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I love reading everything about you. Honestly. It’s just beautiful and always so real and that’s what makes you so special.



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