I open at the close.

It’s been a while, I know.

The last two months have been a Molotov Cocktail of all sort of things: Trump wins while I seemed to be losing.

How the hell did that even happen in the first place? No worries, I ain’t gonna start that conversation because all know where it leads. But the last months have been a proof of how much of a dynamic game life is: One day it seems like you are losing and next day you are elected president. And now that the year has finally ended, you stop and start realizing how many times you lost and won in between.

The last weeks have been assignments, family drama and holidays outfits/food in series. All of them making you want to enter the detox hibernation for days, if not weeks. It just feels like sometimes life throws too many balls at you, both good and bad, and you often lose the coordination to catch them all. I am talking new people entering my life while other decide to exit it, I am talking hard experiences you have to go through while so many great moments start popping here and there. And while I would have focused on all the tough phases in the past and drown in my own misery: that is just really not the case anymore.

I choose the good. I choose the people that make me smile at hello and goodnight. I choose all the little moments that make me grateful to be the owner of my life. I choose the feeling that indicates that I am in the good direction, that I am doing the right thing. I choose to chase my dreams, with fire and without fears. I choose the change and decide to be proud of it, even though some think they are entitled to the right to make me feel ashamed of it. And I have decided a very simple thing: Nobody, absolutely no fuckingbody is going to have the right to make me feel bad about the person I have become.

I choose to win. But I also choose to lose. In fact, I will loose what I have to lose in order to win what I have to win. These are the rules of the game: you grow, you change and you choose. But the most fundamental rule of the game is that you can’t truly have it all. And for the first time, I’m ok with that. I’m okay because I am in peace with myself, with what I do, with the game, with the good and yest, with also all the bad. With letting go and standing strong because I might have lost yesterday, but today? I am the motherf**king president bitches. And I’m back.

Lots of love always,

Neguine


WHAT I’M WEARING: TOPSHOP Blazer // ZARA dress // ADIDAS Sneakers // SAINT LAURENT Bag


 

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  1. January 8, 2017 / 11:56 pm

    “Nobody, absolutely no fuckingbody is going to have the right to make me feel bad about the person I have become. ”
    My sis stronger then ever before! Don’t you dare to ever give up my love. Keep fighting, keep believing. You are where you need to be and I am here to be your friend, always!

  2. January 9, 2017 / 10:00 am

    NEG!!! You always seem to know the exact words that I need to hear! I have decided that this year- 2017- is going to be a great year and no one is going to stand in my way! I have also decided to let go of all the negative things and people in my life and not to care what other people think about me.
    I choose to live by this: Positive vibes only!

    So grateful that you are back! Have been missing you!

  3. January 10, 2017 / 1:38 am

    Welcome back Neguine! Firstly I love that the name of this post has a Harry Potter reference, and second that outfit is amazing! You are such a babe in that dress and the silver blazer is awesome.
    That saying those that mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind is so true. I’ve been upset about people walking out on my life when it turns out it was for the best. Anyone who walks away from you is missing out!

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