15 things I am grateful for, no sarcasm here. (Promise)


Less than 6 hours are left for my last day of being 22 and here I am, writing another heartfelt post. This is the one I have really have been looking forward to publish but somehow it is the one that is being the hardest to write as I can’t seem to find the perfect words to express all these feelings. What is harder to express than a feeling? The joy, the pain, the love: All of them have been object of millions of pieces of arts but I am sure that their authors will never be fully satisfied of the final result as there is nothing more personal than these special sparks. I am about to start a new phase in my life and stopped a moment to analyze how I am feeling. Grateful. I have collected so many moments, experiences, feelings and life lessons that truly make me feel happy and proud to be alive. I have realized that this is a really personal post, mainly composed by all these people that form part of my private life.

But My People, well: they are the best that has ever happened to me. I cherish each one of them more than any present that has ever been given to me and ever will. They are part of who I am and what a better way to present myself than giving them their rightful place on this blog? I truly feel like the luckiest girl on earth and can’t do anything but wish that life will take care of them as much as they took care of me.




How do I do this without being cheesy and annoying? You are probably the hardest person to write to, because you already know everything. Thank you for being this superhero in my life, for kicking the ass of all these negative thoughts in my mind, for setting the realities straight, for making me laugh when it is impossible, for being the best person I know. I am proud of you and who you are baby bro, thank you for believing in me when I don’t and taking me up again. You are the most important person in my life and there is nothing I wouldn’t do for you. Love you jusqu’à l’infini et l’au delà.


M A R I O N 


You know that person in high school who you absolutely hate and name your enemy number 1? Okay, I might be dramatizing but just a tiny bit because that was basically what Marion represented to me and what I represented to her. In the end and by the most awkward story ever, we discovered we were the same soul in a different body. I could explain our relationship in a thousand different ways and there is so much to say but I have to keep your attention going: She is the one who proved me wrong when I thought no one could ever understand me at my deepest emotional levels, she is the one able to make me look like I am a 5 year old laughing during hours, she is the latina that will protect me from anything and anybody. She isn’t only my best friend but also my family and there is not one day I thank life to make my path cross hers even if it was in the most awkward way possible.



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Up and down. Hot and Cold. Some say it is because we are too similar, others say it is because we are too different. I don’t know the reasons why but I know that we are one step closer everyday to fully understand each other and that all these differences are getting smaller with the time.She is also a total dude and god knows how much she struggled with my love of glitterish pink shoes and barbies (which we all know didn’t last very long). She is fierce, passionate and terribly sensitive at the same time and that again she gave me I believe. I can’t even describe how much of a fighter she is: Probably one of the strongest persons I have ever met in my entire life. And that I am so grateful for: She taught me to fight unconditionally for anything I want and for the people I love. What a better gift she could have given me?





E D U C A T I O N 

They say knowledge is a priceless luxury that empowers you. It’s true. Then they say that knowledge is cheap and wisdom is priceless. It is also true. I am not grateful for knowing about marketing or finance, these will surely be highly helpful in the future but they don’t make the person I am. Going to school has given me more than knowledge, it has given me the people I love, the strength to handle anything and the opportunity to do whatever I want wherever I want in life. If I had to choose a career path again, I would do the exact same thing and live an over again every moment. No regrets, and this is surely priceless.





We went to school together but didn’t connect until last year. It was at the final year celebration: both a bit tipsy, under the rain and fed up with the party. We both ended up crying while talking. When I think about it: It was pathetic yet beautiful. She is the person you cannot hate: Too kind, Too smart, Too pretty, Too giving. And yes, you have given me so much, probably more than I will ever be able to give back. The only thing I can wish is that one day you see you are just the way people see you: a Little fireball that shines brighter than the sun and moon together

M Y   N A M E 

It might sound weird and dumb. I used to hate my name because kids would laugh about it all the time, teachers would constantly mispronounce it, some people would joke about it. It was too obvious and in my mind, I constantly thought ” Really?? Is this really all you can do?”. Accepting my name and learning to love it came at the same moment as I started to embrace myself. Its a persian name,  means god’s Jewel and is pronounced Negin and not negwinay or any sort of deviation. It makes me feel different, unique and has become a true signature to me. Now I smile thinking that I might be the only Neguine people meet and that just like me, the name comes with endless stories.

M Y   E X C H A N G E


It happened when I most needed it; I needed to break free from home, from my university, from my daily routine and finally connect with myself. And hell, it was pure happiness. Four months straight of pure happiness.

Each one of the people I met is so different and unique, it really felt that somehow all our personalities were meant to fit together.

Getting out of my comfort zone, meeting people of different cultures, experiencing new adventures and being on my own is something I will never be grateful enough.

M Y    R O O T S 

They confuse a lot of people. I mean long story short: My dad is persian, Mom is Ukrano-Algerian, I was born in France and live in Spain. Yes, you can cringe for my children. Of course there is the food, and the music, and the parties, and the endless stereotypes. But being a multi-cultural child has provided me an open-mind that has allowed me to understand so many things in my life and not having any boundaries to move anywhere and being scared to meet new people.

L I N O U 


6 years ago, I gave him a flower the day of his birthday and called it the happiness flower. That night we promised that we would be Linou and Linette until we are 80 years old and can’t stop bitching about everyone and everything. He kept the flower in his wallet for months, and the promise for years. We still are as retarded, pathetic and awesome as we were at 17, just a tiny bit worse actually.


I will never say it enough but I am so grateful to starting persianbrunette on Instagram. It has brought me so much confidence, funny stories, wonderful friends from all over the world. It has been the highlight of this year, I don’t know how much time I’ll get going with it but for what it’s worth it has helped me reconnect with my love for fashion. It has helped me to start my own blog, It has helped me to not being afraid of who I am anymore. So, I am grateful to all of you beauties that have been part of this adventure!


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Thank you for appearing in my life when I needed it and for being that older sister I never had. Thank you for all these laughs (boobs out included), crazy adventures and support you give me.

You might be an ABC, I still love you.

 C R E A M   K I S S 


 Just because there is only one Néguine coke can on this earth, just made for me with accents and everything else.

B A B A 

Baba et moiIt is not something I talk about anymore: My dad and I haven’t spoken in now 5 years.

Sometimes you just wish you could go back, do some things differently. Because when it’s out there, when your feelings are out there. There is no turning back. Once you made a bold decision. good or bad- You can’t go back to fix things or come back to the way they were before. Then again it’s pointless to think or wish that.

Truth is I don’y even know if i really wish to do things differently. Because without this loss, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Maybe things will get better, maybe they will stay the same but point is: The best things in my life and probably 90% of the things I have talked about in this post happened because this particular thing happened.

Would I take it back? Absolutely not. My dad might not be part of my life anymore but that has allowed many wonderful people to start making part of it. So thank you for once giving me the chance to be your little girl, go to school, travel all around the world, go on exchange. But most of all, thank you for how I have changed during the last years. Nowadays, I’m surrounded by so many things and people that make me infinitely happy and that allow me to being a way better person, than what I used to be. You are missed and loved even if I don’t tell you.

T H E   P E R F E C T  S Q U A D 

I have learned to be more selective, to trust less and to raise my barriers at the highest. It doesn’t feel right to just talk about some people and forget about so many others that contribute to my happiness. Thank you to my family for always standing strong next to me and giving me the values that make the person I am. To Natalia, Nur, Biggie, Sarlouche, Cas, Qing Qing, Sara, Sandra, Christophe, Andrea, Pau and so many more. Thank you for handling me as the freaking disaster I am, laugh at my bad jokes and being a constant inspiration in my life.

G R O W I N G   U P

This article was supposed to be called the 23 things I am grateful for: Yes, 23 for 23 years old. Then I realized that first it would have been waaaay too long and boring, and second that the feeling of being grateful can’t be summarized in 23 points. This years has been all about growing up, finding and embracing myself, taking decisions that will be marking the rest of my life. And I am terribly grateful to this, I am terribly grateful to realize that I am changing, evolving and learning from my mistakes. I am grateful to realize how important the people I love is to me and that this absolutely have no boundaries. Excuse me if I am being so cheesy but after all, once a year, on my birthday: i think I have the right to.

Lots of love always,



  1. September 23, 2015 / 1:44 pm

    Wowwwwww, WOWWWWWW My beautiful Doll! Uffffff I seriously cried ( of happiness ) I swear this is by far the best blogpost i had have ever read. Wow I cannot even express how i feel!
    Doll you should write a book. I mean the words everything you wrote in here is just Amazing. I swear I thought i was reading a book. An amazing Book based ( in real life History) I’m blessed to have connected with such a beautiful person like yourself. You are only 23 years old and the way you express yourself is just beyond this world. I’m so proud of you beautiful!
    I wish you a Happy Birthday full of love and success and happiness! You deserve the best babe!
    Thanks for sharing this love.
    I adored to pieces babe!
    Xox, Raysa

    • neguineb
      September 24, 2015 / 9:41 pm

      Babe… You literally made me cry. Honestly, I will never thank you enough for the support and the love. I’m so happy you liked it and so touched by your words because Hell… I know you read a lot of blogposts!!!Lots of People have been telling me about the book, I don’t quite believe it to be honest. I am so blessed to have connected with you to my love, you are so kind and caring. You are like a big sis <3
      I adore you beautiful Raysa, I am simply speechless and I am sorry I can't truly express what I am feeling right now haha

  2. September 23, 2015 / 1:46 pm

    I mean to write I adore you to pieces!! Sending you lots of love your way my beautiful princess.
    Xox, Raysa

  3. September 23, 2015 / 3:02 pm

    Well !!! ça c’est du post !! ( je m’en fou je t’écris en français parce que bah… on se comprend après tout ! 😀 )
    Bravo pour ce post, très bienfait, très joliment tourné et on ressent que tu y as balancé tout ton cœur ! ♥
    I just adored to read you !
    Wish you again the happiest of your birthdays !
    “Hey!! I don’t know about you…but I feel like 22 !! ”
    I don’t really feel like 22 (almost ! 😀 ) but 22 is my favourite number so…..this is the best age ever !!

    • neguineb
      September 24, 2015 / 9:37 pm

      Je te comprend, toi et moi c’est un peu la folie hein du français à l’anglais on s’y retrouve plus haha !!! Merci merci merci merci <3 A thousand and thousand thank you! Je sais que je le dis souvent sur IG mais franchement ça me fait super chaud au coeur. C'est super personnel et je pensais que ça allait pas intéresser grand monde but I forgot I had the best IG family on earth. Thank you so much for the wishes sweetheart, you are simply the best <3 !!! Lots of love to you babe

  4. September 23, 2015 / 5:20 pm

    I love your writingstyle so much! Everything is so honest and genuine! Lovely read!

    • neguineb
      September 24, 2015 / 9:32 pm

      Thank you so much Monique!!! It means a lot to me! I do indeed love writing, I used to do it for myself only but decided to try out the blogging experience! So glad you like it <3

  5. September 24, 2015 / 10:17 pm

    This is such a beautiful post!! I didn’t realize it but we have quite a lot in common! I’m also a confusing multi-cultural child – my mom is russian, dad is nepalese, I was born in Russia, moved to Australia and now am in Canada. and I don’t keep in contact with my dad anymore. And I’m turning 23 next month! It’s true that the right friends (even online ones) make such a difference! Happy belated birthday again xoxoxo

    • neguineb
      September 24, 2015 / 11:04 pm

      Mariaaaa <3 ! WOW!! We indeed have so much in common!! I am thinking about moving to Canada soon! How funny is that?? I know the whole dad situation really sucks. But hey you grow stronger and better right? So glad you read this post my beauty, That way I get to get to know you more and it is amazing <3 ! Lots of love to you beauty.

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